I cannot be the only one who has asked this before. When you can so clearly see what the ending “should look like” only to wake up and find that it doesn’t fit anymore.
God is the master of our stories.
He weaves gorgeous tales of signs and wonders and serendipitous moments, yet we try so hard to make sense of it all. We cling to reasonable conclusions we find worthy to stick with. But in the blink of a moment suddenly…everything changes.
And with the changes…
My fears questioned His intentions:
- Does Your word return void?
- I thought you said You were going to do this?
- But I believed?
- Was it me?
- Did I fail my own promise?
- Did I mishear you lord?
Tormented by my own inability to comprehend God’s goodness and divine plan. It takes the scripture “His thoughts are higher than our thoughts and His ways are higher than my ways” to a new level of understanding. If God had told you the way it would end…would you have walked it out with the same diligence, and persistence and faith? Would you have dove into the Word the same? Would you have sought His face every morning and night if you knew that what you thought was going to come from it…didn’t?
But the end…the end was only part of it. The part that matters is not what did or didn’t come from what you endured. Its what happened to you while you endured. While you prayed and waited and asked and begged and cried and surrendered and repeated it all the following morning. That refining process, that purification by His perfect blood…the restoring you back to who He originally created you to be. That is what happened.
He happened to YOU.
The ending you had in mind was maybe perhaps never what He meant all along. He had bigger plans than the finite conclusion you drew from his master weaving. He is more than just the Alpha and the Omega. He is so obsessed with the process in between that. This year is not ending the way I thought. It doesn’t look like I imagined it would back in January. But God did not fail me. God’s word did not return void. I did not mishear and I did not fail. He is just BIGGER than I am. And as always, what I got instead…was better than I could’ve asked for.
So rather than staying in a mindset of asking “What happened?”… I am just going to choose to focus on the fact that He happened. And that is the best part.
He is good. HE IS GOOD. No matter what the beginning, middle or end is. He is GOOD.
For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the LORD. His thoughts are higher than our thoughts, HIs ways are higher in our ways.- Isaiah 55:8-9
For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord. Plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you a hope and a future.
When I think of things that didn’t turn out the way I expected I think of chia seed pudding. My sister told me for months to try it but it sounded so weird. Like what is a chia seed anyways? and why would I make pudding out of it??THEN I TRIED IT. And its such a healthy and delicious way to satisfy your sweet tooth and not feel like you’re missing out! Snag the recipe!