I’ve been thinking about this topic for a few weeks now. Researching books I want to read, compiling lists of things I want to cook. Perusing other blogs to see their goals and if anything on their list was something I wanted to pursue. But nothing stuck. All of the doing seemed nice, productive, reasonable. But, something about the lists of potential accomplishments left me feeling unsatisfied.
I wasn’t sure what to think. I operate in goals and check marks and lists. How could I have a year without goals that I can measure? How will I know what I’ve achieved if I am not tracking it?
After days of reflecting and analyzing, I discovered I didn’t want to DO anything this year.
I just want to BE.
I’ve spent this entire year doing and striving and seeking. It was great! I learned more than I could imagine, but the most important truth gained, was the beauty in presence. So, this year my goals look a little different.
I won’t be trying to finish every C.S. Lewis book I can get my hands on or have an amazing recipe for you all every week. Or to join every club on campus.
My goal is to just be.
Be present. Be full. Be whole. While, experiencing the freedom to walk in this stillness in every season.
When things are good and when things are bad, when I am anxious and when I am at peace. Wherever I am, I will be all the way there. In everything, I will stay in the presence of God. I will remain in His peace. I will abide in His love. I will be steadfast in my faith and unshaken in my joy. I will cease striving and just BE.
I will still read books and obviously be cooking because, duh. I will be hosting Pancakes and Prayers and sending out newsletters weekly. But, I am going to let the year unfold as it should and settle into the ebbs and flows of it. Without needing to control or know what it will look like. Without constantly defining every season before it starts or cramming information into my mind. I want to take each day as it comes and give each day, the attention it deserves.
This is it.
…to just BE.