Breakthroughs don’t always look the way we expect them to come. Well, at least for me they don’t. I am constantly waiting for the “running through the field of roses” experience to arrive at any moment. Yep…still waiting. When I think of breakthrough, I imagine someone barreling through the ribbon at the finish line. It’s that moment of clarity when you’ve been up all night trying to understand Property Law (this moment never happened for me unfortunately). I dream of the shift that exposes darkness when light shines through and glitter falls miraculously from the sky.
I’ve noticed that my breakthrough moments aren’t always instant, visible or pretty. They are more like seasons that stem from the brokenness I fight to keep hidden.
I watched a Priscilla Shirer sermon about the disciples’ unbelief in feeding the 5,000 with only five loaves of bread and two fish. We all know this story ends with Jesus feeding everyone. But this time I noticed a detail I never paid attention to before. Jesus BROKE the bread.
This doesn’t make sense. We read about God sending all types of care packages from Heaven. So, why did he split the bread when he could’ve just received more whole loaves? This is hard for me to wrap my mind around. In order to make more to satisfy the many, to fill their voids and needs…he BROKE it. How could the process of separation create multitude?
The word “break” makes me cringe. I find myself breaking things everyday like my favorite pen, my wine glasses and unfortunately sometimes the hearts of the people I love. I experience brokenness when disappointment and unexpected, challenging circumstances occur. But somehow when our broken pieces are in Jesus’ hands, we become more filled, more satisfied and more whole. When Jesus breaks the little we have left, what we see as a few loaves transform into an immeasurable offering.
“When God breaks, He multiples.”
All of us have our broken areas in a few spaces or many others. Maybe its a tiny break. Maybe its an unbearable one. Maybe we are praying for our breakthrough to look one way, but God has prepared it to look totally different. We know one thing to be certain: the breakthrough is in the brokenness. God will use the very thing that is crushing you to build you. He will use your worst seasons to invite your best years of living. He will use your greatest fall as the staircase that leads to your most glorious moment. In His hands, our brokenness isn’t really brokenness.
It is merely the introduction into our breakthrough.